OK, I know I have you all waiting waaaay too long for our 2009 surprise, without further ado, may I introduce...
Huh?! A lima bean? An alien?! I know it's hard to make out, but...
Dear blog friends, friends and family... *are you ready?* It's our pleasure to introduce you to our 8-week-old embryo! (who wants me to remind you that (s)he has since graduated to "fetus" status. Eh hmm)
Yep, I have a bun in the oven, I'm expecting... I'm PREGNANT!!! (OMG OMG OMG!!!)
I know some of you are pounding your fists right now and screaming "AHA! I KNEW IT!!!".
Yes, all the heartburn and nausea (by the way I didn't actually take Pepto-Bismol since it's pregnancy category C), extreme fatigue, musculoskeletal instability, are little clues I've sprinkled in here and there in the past couple of months. Trust me, it was hard for me to not spill my own beans!
I can't even begin to tell you about all the emotions I've felt since we learned of my pregnancy, but here are a few I'm able to verbalize:
I feel elated when I see how adorable other people's babies are.
I freak out when they start throwing tantrums.
I get teary-eyed... well, pretty much at everything these days (and not only because I can stare at people eating sushi and drinking sake but CAN'T TOUCH THEM anymore).
I feel excited imagining strapping the baby on our chest and going on our favorite hike (with Bryson, of course).
I feel hopeful to think of how a new administration will make our world a better place for our child to grow up in.
I feel panicked when I look at my yet-to-be-employed husband.
Yeah, that kinda sums it up. I know there're a lot of negative emotions, but I can't lie. I know we're blessed beyond words to be able to have a child when we want to, but like I said before, I've always been kinda kiddophobic, and I still am.
But the fact that I used to be afraid of dogs before Bryson, and how I somehow found this place in my heart the day he showed up at our door and now can't imagine loving anything else more, helped me believe that I am capable of being a mother. Anyway, too late now since I don't think there's a return policy on this. :P